stay or leave

“he is the lamb, she is the slaughter” -brand new "sic gloria transit"

i’m just going to sit here in this corner
eighteen
and bleeding out
praying and fiddling with my fingers
counting down

until I hurt myself again
or until you do.

stretching open the heart to see if the gutless beast still lives
i’m here
dying inside from moments like these…
twisted and fatigued.

come here and teach me how to love
don’t show me the pain I know resides under the surface of my skin
i see it break and bruise
comforted by the sting that will always hold me close in the times that you won’t

i will only ask you to calm down once more
because tomorrow I’ll be gone
driven away

i stole your soul and I’d like to give it back now
i hope you’ll understand…
no one who chooses to hurt me stays in my life for long.

and I just want to hold you
have a conversation
swirl about in love…